Christian living

Why

What we see will

violate

what we know

unless what we know dictates

what we see

Why?

You know that question that you’re toddlers constantly asking? It can get pretty annoying at times. But have you ever actually thought about why? Why did this happen? Or why did I do that? Why am I doing what I’m doing? Why I’m a mom? Why I’m afraid? Why am I always asking myself to do so much?
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What’s you’re why? Why do you get up in the morning? Why do you do what you do everyday? Why do you keep the same routine? Why do you tear yourself down? Why do you compare yourself?
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Have you stopped and asked yourself why?
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Today I find myself asking why a lot, why do I do what I do? why do I act this way? Why have I always been scared? Why do i let this happen? Why am I insecure? Why can’t I trust?

I always do for others, I put them before me no matter how they treat me. I keep giving until I have nothing else to give. I do for them and not God first. I end up hurting myself, I give them my everything. I have realized I can’t serve God if I keep serving a different master. I used to tell myself I’ll fix my hair for you, or I’ll dress this way for you. That I workout to look good for you, and I keep the house clean for you. I’ll cook a healthy meal for you. I never stop to think and serve God in all these ways. God loves me no matter what, he will never leave me or forsake me. Yet I keep doing for others and not healing my heart, to be able to Love and put God first. And today I ask myself why? Why do I always do for others and not do it for ME!
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Well let me tell y’all something. Don’t ever do something if it’s always in the sake of doing it for them. Yes I know we’re supposed to do for others, however not at the point that we lose ourselves and not do for ourselves. I’m also not talking about the selfish I’ll do everything for me kinda way. I’m talking about the I get up and workout for me, because I want to look and feel good. The I keep the house clean because I simply can’t function in clutter, the I cook because I actually enjoy it and I’m not a salve to serving you. The I love and stay home because I want the best for my kids and I want to be the one that pours into them daily.
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Sometimes we get so lost that we end up losing ourselves. Take the blindfold off and know it’s okay to put yourself first, to make yourself happy. Because when you do, you make the ones you love even happier, even more loved, even more appreciated.
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I hope this helps you find you’re why, I know it 

God’s love isn’t based on me. It’s simply placed on me. And it’s the place from which I should live….Loved

Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart. (Psalm 37:4)

If you abide in Me, and my words abide in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. ( John 15:7)